For a change

Okay just because people are running to the gym to re-start their fitness regimen and get back to their ever optimum shape I will have to make a dash as well to the nearest health club armed with the credit card and my acidic zeal, so acidic it could burn and punch a hole in my throat. Anyway I am not that and writing about my current weight and shape is not a favorite past time. I honestly detest it or I’m confused right now, I do not detest it rather I have been avoiding it like the plague for 3 years already and why?

Number 1, I am not a very healthy person. I have a spectacular diet, meaning to say I do not discriminate. What and when and how much I eat, I do not bother to think about. I reach for a dark chocolate bar when I am upset to calm myself. I bolt to the 7-11 store and buy a Gulp of soda when I am confronted with a pile of reading materials. My idea of healthy eating is opting for a grilled Brother’s burger and a tub of yoghurt ice cream with sweet toppings and all the works.

Number 2, I am a sedentary person. My only form of exercise is walking little distances and doing grocery. Though I play with my kids a lot during weekends, I hope laughing and acting childlike also burns calories. Climbing a flight of stairs has been quite a daunting feat, it makes my heart race so hard that I need to stop midway and catch my breath.

Number 3, I am a food addict (period).

I hope to change my unhealthy lifestyle, habit and orientation. They say, if you want something badly, you have to write about it so that the universe will take your words and conspire to help you make it happen. So this is my piece, my hope for a healthier me this 2011. It will not be easy and an overnight deal but I am taking it. I’m tired of carrying all this excess weight and tired of making excuses to friends who dare comment about my weight gain and I would wear my arrogant accent and scowl and say “I just gave birth to my baby girl” while referring to my daughter who is turning 4 years old next week. I’m tired of feeling guilty after enjoying a more than hearty meal with my family. I just want to free myself from this addiction and take control of it. My BMI is something that I wouldn’t dare put into print here. It scares me sometimes. I want to live until the time I get my chance to spoil my own grandchildren the way my kids are spoiled by my in-laws and parents. Please, I just want to be kinder to myself some more…

Okay then with all that has been said, any recommendations for some nice-looking but durable running shoes in the market? I intend to drop by the sports plaza later this afternoon. Well I hope this is not just to justify another shoe buying session… I’ll keep my fingers crossed.