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There are some things that you can’t really write about or in my case, blog about.

I’ve drafted several paragraphs only to highlight and hit the delete button afterwards. I’ve done it four times in a row that even Neo Gray here seems to protest with her keys ticking loudly as I begin anew. I had 4 unsuccessful attempts at boxing an array of conflicting emotions which has enveloped me for the past few days, and the failure to get the whole thinking process done only adds up to the looming devastation. I wanted to post it as a remembrance of the cruel times but my inability to put it into readable form betrays me.

Once I begin to re-process the words and phrases in my mind, the words begin to lose its luster and conveying power. It’s just not fair when words fall short, especially when you are caught in the middle of a dividing storm and dealing with “collateral damage” that are dear faces, friends actually.

Just the other day, I felt numb. At least today, I’m better. I now feel pain but my appetite to keep up the fight has not wavered. Any day is good and I will always remember that winning will not always be the end goal. Keeping one’s integrity is the wining theme.